che era tempo per andare su strada

it was time to go to amsterdam that we planned weeks before going to italy. we were gona be 5 girls alone in amsterdam,going crazy. I wasn't aware of it yet. everything went so fast, i was in milan, just rented an apartment, trying to speak with people, meeting people, going to italian classes and now i had to go to holland, alone without knowing anything. well , i said ' till the road goes' and it did.
I missed my early 7 am flight,got angry to myself for sleeping a lot (not that much angry to change it thou),and waited in the airport for 10 hours for the next flight at 6 pm. when i arrived i was exhausted. because i had to wait for the train there for 2 hours more. and the girls for 30 more minutes. I was going crazy. then the girls came and hug me! i was worth it when i think! one of my best 3 days in my life ever!

the first nite. we weren't actually aware of whats going on, and girls naked showing themselves to us from the display window. we though that was humiliating women. and ironic part was women doing it with this pride they have on their faces. so it was kinda shocking moments we lived there. but you overcome it quickly thanks to the disregard behaviour of humans' and being able to forget it when there is lots of things going on. 

so we were out ready to get high, we went to a coffee shop knowing nothing. got a pot, smoking. it is legal. and i think this how it should be! when it's illegal there happens an unnecessary attraction towards the banned thing and humans weakly can not resist it. so then the unnecessary attraction leads you use it illegally, hiding, without experience, unconsciously using and thus leading to do more stupid and illegal things.

anyhoo, after smoking girls went to hostel. me n gizem wanted to explore. (btw, i fed a swan. it was beautiful and i almost feel in the river.) so we started walking and looking at the shops. those shops were shocking and a bit scary. I said that whole 3 days 'seriously guys, traveling wides your vision'. It did. It had permanent effects on my 'sex n drug' visions. I learned some things i never heard before. my sentences started to begin with 'wha, how?' all the time.

for now i want to shut up and let the pictures talk by themselves.

                                            denial..

                             yep thats my name.
                             a lot of green stuff!

 with the turk we knew there. His name was Serkan and he helped us a lot=) we tried spacecake. it was just like a regular cake. no difference. then in an hour you start to get high. they say its heavy but i think it depends on the habit of body. we went to h&m no one knows why, no one remembers but it was pure girl desires manifest for 'shopping'

                                   then we started to fly...

                      then we found us hugging the snowman? wha?
                      we needed to spread our love somehow..

         and near that snowman we saw some weird and funny things. there was a snow skating rink, and some guys dressed up like a policeman, fireman,cowboy and skates under them. and I remember screaming 'pls lets skate it would be awesome'. then just after i wanted and girls denied those guys started skating and holding hands. it was actually gays shooting a video and I'm sure they also recorded our screaming 'ohaaa, ohaaaa' which is an expression that you give when you can't believe what you see or hear. but we couldn't stop screaming. in the scenario there was a policeman and a guilty man. so the police was trying to catch the guilty man and then as he did he starting punishing him. you can imagine how that happens,with police batons and lots of butts. 

              there was..  no gravity.

                no! this is day time. its just the way we are. 

                 some professional pictures by pelin kilic. and the best is to have a friend who is a proffessional photographer. we were so lucky to have pelin with us!

                                             visions...
                                             denials
they wanted to skip van gogh museum and jumped instead. we were jealous later.the last day we searched for photography museum, and learned later that it was closed that day. shit happens. i remember it was freezing! damn it was so freakin' cold. 

near that 'I amsterdam' thare was a skate ring.and there was a legendary boy that entertain us like an hour. He was a little ginger boy, who tries to skate but in a very very funny way.

                                         the candy shop!

 our last day we tried mushroom. well you have to buy it from a smart shop. It was sold under treatment. that was funny. we decided to try in the hostel, which was really really logical. Pelin and Hilal didn't tried to keep an eye on us. thanks guys. Well as i remember, I saw a pillow breathing, head of the bed (which is iron) melting and me going in it, and my arm leaving me. that was the scary part of all. i was crying and shouting 'my arm is gone,my arm is gone' and ipek was jumping,and saying that everywhere is shaking. my experience about the mushroom is that it creates an unbelievable imagination. it opens your eyes and provides you to create and see really original masterpieces around you which in day time we ignore to see. When I think, I can undertand why all the masters of art, musicians and people who creates use drugs. I'm not saying its the right thing to do, but its the easiest and quickest way to create,have a weird vision. Does it worth your life to create a masterpiece? I leave it to you...

As I said, it was my best 3 day vacation in my life. and me and girls are planing another one to another place in the world.  We'll see about that!